ONE WHOLE MONTH....

So I made it a whole month without SMOKING!! Woo Hoo! Yeah me, I am no longer a smoker... never again in my life will I pick up another cigarette! This was no one's choice, but MINE, a choice I MADE on my own... I'm pretty proud of myself, I was definitely tested.
As we are backing out of the driveway on Wednesday, I was putting my camera in the console, (haven't looked in there in who knows how long), guess what I see? A brand new pack of cigarettes that I had apparently bought a while back un-opened... that sat there in the console until we got to Jay's parents house. I told my mom and dad that knowing they were there was really hard, especially driving for 5 hours! Usually when I smoked the most!
Mom and Dad asked why I hadn't thrown them away... I didn't really know the answer, so Mom and Dad asked if they could talk to Jay a minute, I said "sure." Apparently they had asked him if he would help me out.... cause next thing I know he is getting in the console opening the brand new pack of cigarettes and dumping them in the gravel at his parents house. Then he stomped them, and spun his foot on top of them until there was nothing but the butts left to pick up... he said, "MAN, that was pretty therapeutic!" Ha Ha Ha
Apparently he had some pent up anger? Ya think?
So.... there you have it, I was tested, but guess what? I PASSED!! :)

Happy Thanksgiving

I pray that you all enjoy your families and have a wonderful Thanksgiving!

What a week.... I'm glad its over! (side note: Get 'er guns up! Wreck 'em Texas Tech!)

It was kind of hard to be positive this week, its so hard to be so far from everyone. I have friends AT WORK and friends at Church, but after 5pm and before 8am I have Jason. Not that I mind hanging out with my husband, I love it, but if you know me, you know I need people.... well I need family and friends... I wasn't liking Nashville very much this week at all. Monday night, Jason called me on his way home from work and a deer hit him. Literally jumped into the side of my car (he's been driving it because the transmission is going out in it) He's ok just a cut inside his ear, and the car is drivable, but until today it was really hard to see any positivity about the whole situation. Anyway, it busted the rear-view mirror and the driver's side window. So the Malibu not only needs a new transmission which is way more than the car is worth, but a new rear-view mirror and a driver's side window. Cha Ching $$, Cha Ching $$.... to top it off, I asked Jason about 2 months ago after seeing a car insurance commercial,
Me - "do we have a rental car on our insurance?"
J - "yep"
Me - "U sure?"
J - "yes"
Me - "can you call tomorrow and double check?"
J - "yes"

I bet ya'll know what I'm going to say next.... Yep, that'd be right... no rental car on our insurance, so now what, do you ask.... "[Jason's] just going to drive it" Stubborn men.... Are you kiddin me? Drive it? Without a window? When there are snow flurries and its getting down to 19 degrees at night.... Whatever, I give up, NOW you know why I need an out.... I need GIRLS, I NEED FRIENDS just down the street from me! I need FAMILY!! So all of you that live in Nashville, point.... laugh.... blow your horn.... at the Malibu that's side is dented in, the rear-view mirror is literally hanging by a wire, and the driver's side window that is "saran-wrapped (hell if I know what he used on the window).... I have to laugh now, if I didn't I would go INSANE!!! And that was just MONDAY!!! Needless to say, I'm ready for the weekend and Saturday night football!! Texas Tech vs. OU at 7pm.... Let's go Red Raiders!

I've done it!

Its official, I am no longer a smoker!! I haven't had one in 16 days today!! We went out Saturday night to a bar for one of my girlfriends birthdays and its wasn't hard for me at all. It actually grossed me out! Habits and addictions are so hard to break, but seriously with the Chantix it wasn't as hard as I thought it would be.
Anyway, just wanted to update you all on my progress.... I'm pretty proud of it!

Best Husband on the planet!!!

Jason has got to be the best husband on the planet! He's always helping around the house and since we've moved here, we had to kind of switch roles. In Amarillo the hospital wasn't very far from my house so I could have supper started and almost ready by the time he would get home from his job in Canyon. Well, since we've moved here, he's had to start supper because I don't get home until 6pm when I leave work at 5pm and if I am a little after that, then forget it! Usually he has supper finished or closed to being finished by the time I get home. Yesterday, I had bad mouthed him at work because him and one of my boss' fiance's went hunting Sunday and Jay decided for some strange reason that we needed TWO deer? What the heck are we going to do with 2 deer and then he wants to process it at our house.... so whatever... I felt bad after bad mouthing him when I got home last night. He had the day off yesterday because of Veteran's Day... Well, I get home and he had literally cleaned every room in our house... SPOTLESS!!! And.... to top it off has dinner ready as soon as I walked into the house. I'm not talking just picked up... I'm talking sheets off the bed with a new set on the bed, every bit of laundry washed, folded and put away...dishes washed and put away... AND.... he cleaned the kitchen AS HE WAS COOKING... which never happens. I was like Jay this looks awesome, were you bored today? Nope, just wanted make the house look nice for you! WHAT? Is this man for real? He's awesome and I absolutely love him to death! Thank you Jay for making me feel special everyday!
PS: He has a single brother!!! LOL...

Veterans Day

I just want to personally thank every man and woman who has fought for my freedoms, past, present and future. I can not put into words how I feel about each of you, your families and sacrifices! Thank you again for fighting for our country! May God be with each of you on this day and everyday!

GOD BLESS the USA and the Men and Women who serve it!

10 down 2 to go!!

I am so proud to be a Texas Tech fan... They are well on their way to the CHAMPIONSHIP!!! OU 11/22 and Baylor 11/29.... Get 'er GUNs UP!! Graham Harrell for the Heisman 2008!!!

How beautiful is this State!!!

One of the best pictures I have taken! Love it!

A run down....

Well lets see, compared to last week, this week has been pretty great. T and S (A's daughters) called me on Monday and we visited about school, football, softball, boys and of course their Mom. They both were so glad to have my cell number and it made my day that they felt comfortable enough to call me. They both told me that they loved me and wanted to see me, so I was planning a trip to Amarillo in December for my Goddaughter's debut in the Nutcracker ballet, so I just added a couple of days so maybe I can make it to Perryton and one my way there I can pick up S and B in Pampa and take them to lunch or something and at least finally give them that hug I been dying to give them!! And T called me night before last just to chit chat, she invited me to KState for her 21st birthday weekend in Feb and I am planning on going, I sure hope I can. Her Mom always made her Birthday so special and fun, its the day before Valentine's Day... they would have a bunch of girls over, do toenails, fingernails, and watch chick flicks. "A" had told me that she wanted to make T's 21st birthday amazing, so I would love to be there for her on her day! They have just really made me feel pretty good. S started her new school on Wednesday and had an ok day, I can't imagine how hard it is for her and her brother B to pick-up in the middle of the school year, move to a new town and start a new school all without a Mom to talk to about all the changes going on in their little lives.... Continue to pray for them and M.
As for the whole trying to quit smoking I am now SIX days smoke free... the only thing I have been trying to fight and I have found really hard is the habit of being out on my porch when I am on the telephone. So to fight the urge, I went out on the porch talked on the phone and chewed THE CRAP out of a straw!! I am feeling fantastic!!! Trying to fight EATING all the time though.... I've been doing good and even better once our Halloween candy was out of the house!
This weekend I am not sure what we are going to do, J called me this morning and asked if I would want to take a picnic out to the lake tomorrow and maybe drive around some more in Nashville to take pictures.... You can not believe all the COLORS! There are several spots on my way to work, I would love to just stop and shoot a picture. Off 440 there is a cemetery and the back drop is all the colors you can possibly imagine, reds, oranges, yellow, rust, deep purple's and dark greens... I haven't seen anything this gorgeous since we lived in Wyoming! I absolutely love fall in Tennessee!! So we will either do that, or I may try to talk him into taking a quick trip into the Smoky Mountains this weekend and take some really awesome pictures, plus some much needed time out of the house together!
I'm pretty excited about next week, one of my girlfriends from Amarillo is coming here to see her sister in Mt. Juliet, her and her mom will be here the 13-17th, YAY! FINALLY SOME GIRLFRIENDS!! And some GIRL TIME!!! AND.... someone who knows me!!! I'm pretty excited! I will finally get to show off my house to one of my friends! This is probably really wishful thinking but I called Tana last night and told her to catch a flight with them! Now that would be fun! I sure do miss her and my Goddaughter, I miss going to lunch, running by her house if I wanted to, just hanging out! She's my family and we have been best friends for 29 years, her mom and my mom have been best friends since 6th grade, so we feel like sisters. Anyway, I'm rambling, but this week as definitely been a better week! Hope to take some more great pictures of fall this weekend so stay tuned....

New lifestyle check...

Well as most of you know I have been taking Chantix for 7 days now, I slipped up this weekend.... That Texas Tech game got me all nervous!! Ha... by slipping up I mean I had one cigarette and didn't enjoy it so I put it out half way through. So you can smoke on it for the first 7 days and then you are done. I was done with my pack after that Saturday nervousness slip up.... and I'm not buying anymore. Its a great drug, but you have to be willing to quit as well. I have been a little irritable, but with the week I had last week, I think I've done pretty good. It will be a process and I am willing to stick it out for the sake of my life and our future family. Just hadn't given you an update on my lifestyle change... unfortunately I had to restart my quit days... so now, its 4:35pm and I'm almost 2 days smoke free....

I love fall in Tennessee...

Jay and I went for a hike around Radnor Lake yesterday after Church and man was it beautiful. It was so peaceful out there, they have the road blocked off around the lake so the road that goes around the lake you can walk on, and then there are trails that go off of the road up into the woods, it was gorgeous. There is no fishing allowed and no boats allowed so the water was like glass unless a fish jumped.... we saw a buck, a doe and her baby... it was definitely good for the soul! Here are some pictures that we took.... enjoy! We definitely saw God yesterday!

There is a new angel in heaven....

Loosing a friend, who was so young and being this far away from her family and my friends last week was super tough for me. I got to talk to a couple of buddies I hadn't spoken with since we moved and it was so good to hear their voices and know that they were there for M and the kids. S who I have been friends with since I worked at Coors almost 6 years ago, called me the day of the funeral and told me he was giving the girls my cell phone number so that they could call me whenever they wanted talk. That made me feel great. Anyway, they told me that A's funeral was beautiful and that K did a wonderful job. I said a prayer for him that day as well, he married them 5 years ago and I can not imagine how hard that was.
Thursday was the funeral and I've done a lot of praying this week, like really hard praying. Around 2pm Thursday I went off by myself into an office, locked the door and prayed, I was feeling alone, I wanted to be there so bad with all of our friends, just to celebrate her life and to physically be there for M and the kids. So I am praying in the office and just asking for K to have the right words to help comfort her family, praying that God would comfort the family the only way he can, to help carry them until they are able to walk on their own again. I felt better once I had my time, but still just felt alone. God is amazing, in about 10 minutes I get a call on my cell phone from the preacher at the church Jay and I have been visiting, I haven't ever spoken to the man on the phone before, his first words were, this is M from BGB Church and I was calling to ask you how your week was going? Tears filled my eyes, amazed once again my God's love. I told him about A and the loss I was feeling and how sad I was that couldn't be there for M and the kids, he asked me if it was ok if he prayed for me and for A's family. I lost it and said absolutely can you please. I needed reassurance at that moment and God answered my prayers.
Today, I am doing better, I have been able to talk to M a couple of times and bless his heart he is so lost, so please keep him and her kids in your prayers. I've been able to make him chuckle a couple of times and that made me feel better, I just wish I could give the big guy a hug! I know now that we have one more beautiful angel in Heaven watching over us, and I will get to see her again one day.
A -- I am thankful that God brought you into M's life so that I could meet you and your kids. I will miss the talks we used to have, sitting in the chair at your house wrapped in a blanket watching t.v. and football games, your beautiful smile and the way you lit up a room when you walked into it. I will miss the way you looked at your kids, I will miss your silly little way you talked to the dogs when they "were talking" to us. You were a beautiful daughter, wife, Mother, Nurse, and friend and you will truly be missed by all that you touched. I can not wait to see you again!