Loosing a friend, who was so young and being this far away from her family and my friends last week was super tough for me. I got to talk to a couple of buddies I hadn't spoken with since we moved and it was so good to hear their voices and know that they were there for M and the kids. S who I have been friends with since I worked at Coors almost 6 years ago, called me the day of the funeral and told me he was giving the girls my cell phone number so that they could call me whenever they wanted talk. That made me feel great. Anyway, they told me that A's funeral was beautiful and that K did a wonderful job. I said a prayer for him that day as well, he married them 5 years ago and I can not imagine how hard that was.
Thursday was the funeral and I've done a lot of praying this week, like really hard praying. Around 2pm Thursday I went off by myself into an office, locked the door and prayed, I was feeling alone, I wanted to be there so bad with all of our friends, just to celebrate her life and to physically be there for M and the kids. So I am praying in the office and just asking for K to have the right words to help comfort her family, praying that God would comfort the family the only way he can, to help carry them until they are able to walk on their own again. I felt better once I had my time, but still just felt alone. God is amazing, in about 10 minutes I get a call on my cell phone from the preacher at the church Jay and I have been visiting, I haven't ever spoken to the man on the phone before, his first words were, this is M from BGB Church and I was calling to ask you how your week was going? Tears filled my eyes, amazed once again my God's love. I told him about A and the loss I was feeling and how sad I was that couldn't be there for M and the kids, he asked me if it was ok if he prayed for me and for A's family. I lost it and said absolutely can you please. I needed reassurance at that moment and God answered my prayers.
Today, I am doing better, I have been able to talk to M a couple of times and bless his heart he is so lost, so please keep him and her kids in your prayers. I've been able to make him chuckle a couple of times and that made me feel better, I just wish I could give the big guy a hug! I know now that we have one more beautiful angel in Heaven watching over us, and I will get to see her again one day.
A -- I am thankful that God brought you into M's life so that I could meet you and your kids. I will miss the talks we used to have, sitting in the chair at your house wrapped in a blanket watching t.v. and football games, your beautiful smile and the way you lit up a room when you walked into it. I will miss the way you looked at your kids, I will miss your silly little way you talked to the dogs when they "were talking" to us. You were a beautiful daughter, wife, Mother, Nurse, and friend and you will truly be missed by all that you touched. I can not wait to see you again!
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